Not always equipoised, missing you in the moment

Not always equipoised, missing you in the moment

It is very difficult to accept the loss of my beloved, DC. I miss him badly. Though, I had promised him two months ago that if destiny separated us and if he left early, I would not mourn his death. But it is very difficult to accept this loss. When I was returning from my friends place I saw a few dogs who I wanted to befriend and they started barking. It happened for the first time in four years. May be because they could not sense my friedly vibes that I used to have when he was around, it could be the possibility.

 

The solution to this I think that I spent some time with these innocent animals I often come across. enroute, may be spending good time. Arranging for shelter or food for them. And expanding my horizons, working for other animals. That way I will channelize my love and loss of my DC.

 

Why I miss him more is because i am experiencing pain and I know for sure at this moment of time he would have come around, waiting for me to get up from my chair, sit down on the floor so that he can come close, cuddle give me his much-needed hug, unconditional love and warmth.

Why mirroring is important?

If not mirror, how would you get to see an amazing person otherwise. Many of us live in oblivion and die without leaving a trace, no, I'm not talking about carbon footprint!

If only we look at the mirror, and accept the person we see in mirror with love, it will bring a world of positive change. But sadly, when we look at the mirror, we look at it with so many layers of intangible glasses.

Glasses of all types, judgments, conclusions or conditioning that says, look at you and others, they're managing relationship so well, doing so good in life. 

Let's do good with ourselves. To evolve we need to be in praise of what we are in the moment. 

Love,

Preyash

Me with mirror

At times I wish I had someone by my side who didn't judge me, held me and said, 'dear, it's ok. I'm with you. I accept you the way you are. I believe in you.' But that's not gonna be..real world doesn't work on fancies and each one of us fancy this soul-buddy.  Before I embrace the loved ones, wishing for this buddy I know I have to embrace myself.

The Dark Reality

We often live in guilt, anguish and sorrow; self affirmation and counseling in such times is incorrect. We have to be with it, accept it with grace and without remorse. There is no point preaching, don't think bad and all. Because it's a different plane and as true as the white ones. When you're positive, optimistic you don't see this aspect, so discarding the dark emotions is impractical and not feasible.

My Endeavour

I had almost given up. It was not that I thought myself to be incompetent or short of skillsets, but just that I didn't have interest in this matter. Just when I decided to take a call and quit, my friend said, 'right move, it's impossible and brought me in.

A Plastic Toy

They wanted me to behave

To always smile,

They cared not differ between

Calm and fragile

They wanted me NOT to disrespect

Shout at others

They inculcated in me

All good manners

They reduced me to a battery operated

Toy of plastic

I remember and regret now….

Was born a human(sic)

I fear

The more I know you
The more I like to hear

The less I talk with you
The more I fear!