Not always equipoised, missing you in the moment
It is very difficult to accept the loss of my beloved, DC. I miss him badly. Though, I had promised him two months ago that if destiny separated us and if he left early, I would not mourn his death. But it is very difficult to accept this loss. When I was returning from my friends place I saw a few dogs who I wanted to befriend and they started barking. It happened for the first time in four years. May be because they could not sense my friedly vibes that I used to have when he was around, it could be the possibility.
The solution to this I think that I spent some time with these innocent animals I often come across. enroute, may be spending good time. Arranging for shelter or food for them. And expanding my horizons, working for other animals. That way I will channelize my love and loss of my DC.
Why I miss him more is because i am experiencing pain and I know for sure at this moment of time he would have come around, waiting for me to get up from my chair, sit down on the floor so that he can come close, cuddle give me his much-needed hug, unconditional love and warmth.
